and there you have the danger , thinking excitement for a strategy game (like risk) has no correlation with exitement for war.
All the mumbojumbos in the army hiarchy also claim they are so peaceful, don't particularly enjoy the sight of bloody corpses and are specialized only in playing wargame/simulations and managing men and resources... but yet all their actions lead to bloody confrontations for some poor bloke down the line of command.
WW1 commanders got very excited in their planning stages shifting flags and puppets on the map and were elated when after a battle they "scored" a few miles of frontline space.
And the expense of thousands of own troops casualties were just an abstract feature.
I am sure that all you "risk game lovers but not war lovers" would opt for a place in the "high command" rather than be a foot soldier so as to argue that your capabilities in strategy thinking would make you "serve" your country best (and leave the bloodshed to less intelligent countrymen).
but there is no shame in that. It's in your genes . Being male, you have that sense of territorial win in you. That's why such games (but also poker, blackjack, etc) are more popular with men than with women.
I find it more shameful to DENY it.
PS I think a professional psychiatrist / Philosofer would be able to explain this better.. but I hope I was able to put a different tone here.
