

1) I can't stand authority,
2) I try to be fair towards people. I figured: "You are training in Aikido dojo in wich you are expected to behave a certain way. Nobody forced you to come; you came because you want to learn something from these nice people. So, if they have rules, follow them!" and
3) When I follow the rules, I have no measure. It's a monkey thing really. Mentally I understand that rules have a sense and purpose (well thes rules have, anyway) but I just can't force myself to accept the rules as my own. So, after some time, I came to realize that I am bowing to my professors, friends that I meet or people that I am introducing myself to.



But, at least I learned a) learned lot of interasting and usefull stuff and b) re-learned that not to have predjudice about people based on their age (the best fighter I ever saw was a 65 year old women about 1.6 meters tall)