The Bigger Man
Posted: Tue Dec 27, 2011 7:32 pmI'm reaching out here gang, these are troubled times where I'm caught between confusion and pain.
Lately I've been experiencing small bouts with depression and anxiety. My doctor says that it's because I'm a cross addicted selfish ass who walks among regular people. My personal diagnosis, I think I just need another doctor who can offer me more drugs. Although I will admit, that most of my fears and apprehensions stem from a feeling of lack in control. I still can't quite put my thumb on what is going on with me lately. I feel hollow and defeated most of the day and increasingly *horngry towards the tail end of my nights.
Over the last few days I twice lashed out on a fellow community member just to feel better about myself, even if just for that moment did it last. I feel like I'm losing my grip and am terribly ashamed. Upon eating my emotions for an unhealthy amount of time, I realized that I wasn't fooling anyone but my own miserable self. We all know that the people who criticize are the ones who carry the most self hatred...
I'm laughing on the outside
Just to cry again on the in
Master Bush(My old porn name btw, another time), before you judge me further allow me to tell you a little bit about myself. Please don't let me be misunderstood.
I am a right handed heterosexual
I grew up in a shanty town, with no electricity and scarce running water. In fact somedays the only water I knew was from my own tears
I am under the impression that schooling is something done at Harry Potter's Fantastical School of Magic
I have a glandular problem
I have large pendulous breasts
Now, realizing that I was heading for a downward spiral of self-destruction I decided to turn this situation into a positive. Originally I was going to try and provoke you through private messaging into a real life meeting where we could rumble but quickly decided against for I am incredibly weak and have the fighting fists of a lesbian cashier. Luckily, somewhere I once heard that it is better to solve problems by using your mind instead of your flesh hammers.
So here's what I'm going to do for you Master Bush. Firstly, I'd like to apologize to you Master Bush in any way you deem fit. Secondly, I'd like for you to insult me three times fold and don't go easy! Lastly, I'd like to have your permission to continue being your passionate protector. But if you don't believe I'm up for the task, I'd understand given my inexcusable behavior.
Key:
*a slight infusion of horny and angry
So sorry forever x 1,000,000,
King_Herpes maybe still your p.p.
Lately I've been experiencing small bouts with depression and anxiety. My doctor says that it's because I'm a cross addicted selfish ass who walks among regular people. My personal diagnosis, I think I just need another doctor who can offer me more drugs. Although I will admit, that most of my fears and apprehensions stem from a feeling of lack in control. I still can't quite put my thumb on what is going on with me lately. I feel hollow and defeated most of the day and increasingly *horngry towards the tail end of my nights.
Over the last few days I twice lashed out on a fellow community member just to feel better about myself, even if just for that moment did it last. I feel like I'm losing my grip and am terribly ashamed. Upon eating my emotions for an unhealthy amount of time, I realized that I wasn't fooling anyone but my own miserable self. We all know that the people who criticize are the ones who carry the most self hatred...
I'm laughing on the outside
Just to cry again on the in
Master Bush(My old porn name btw, another time), before you judge me further allow me to tell you a little bit about myself. Please don't let me be misunderstood.
I am a right handed heterosexual
I grew up in a shanty town, with no electricity and scarce running water. In fact somedays the only water I knew was from my own tears
I am under the impression that schooling is something done at Harry Potter's Fantastical School of Magic
I have a glandular problem
I have large pendulous breasts
Now, realizing that I was heading for a downward spiral of self-destruction I decided to turn this situation into a positive. Originally I was going to try and provoke you through private messaging into a real life meeting where we could rumble but quickly decided against for I am incredibly weak and have the fighting fists of a lesbian cashier. Luckily, somewhere I once heard that it is better to solve problems by using your mind instead of your flesh hammers.
So here's what I'm going to do for you Master Bush. Firstly, I'd like to apologize to you Master Bush in any way you deem fit. Secondly, I'd like for you to insult me three times fold and don't go easy! Lastly, I'd like to have your permission to continue being your passionate protector. But if you don't believe I'm up for the task, I'd understand given my inexcusable behavior.
Key:
*a slight infusion of horny and angry
So sorry forever x 1,000,000,
King_Herpes maybe still your p.p.